I am sorry I know that last post was…well far too truthful for the web but honestly I don’t think I am the only one in this situation who has these thoughts. It is so frustrating to feel out of control but in all reality we are always out of control. I have been doing more research as I always do after a binging night and even worse day and all roads lead to dealing with your subconscious. So either severe amnesia, meditation, or hypnosis. I would go with the first option but I’m not sure how well that one would work. I am committing to 15 minutes of meditation once a day. I would rather do it in the morning but we will see.